What's Been Going On

So, it's been a while since I last posted. Sorry about that. Life sort of got crazy lately.
We went through our first cycle of IUI. I was able to give myself shots without freaking out or anything. All the sonograms were great and I had a follicle 23mm! That's the biggest I've ever had that I know about. Everything looked good, but it didn't work.
We went to Oklahoma a couple weekends ago to celebrate the life of my grandfather. He passed away peacefully, sleeping in his recliner . . . exactly how I always thought he would. ALL of my cousins and their kids and most of their spouses made it to the funeral so we had 39 of the 41 members of our family crammed into Grandma's house. The funeral was sweet with lots of fun memories shared. He had requested that they play a recording of our family singing and it was weird to sit and listen to myself. But special. And those of us who were still there Saturday sat and sang together once again. Grandpa would have loved it. And we're all going to miss him a bunch!
We headed east on vacation last weekend. We lost the air conditioning in the car a little over halfway across Louisiana. I got the call that I wasn't pregnant shortly after we hit Alabama. I was literally a hot mess when we finally got to my sister's house. We spent several days with her, went to Jeremy's cousin's wedding, headed up to see my other Grandma in middle TN, and then to Memphis a few days to hang out with Jeremy's family. It was sort of a crazy trip that didn't go quite like I had planned, but I don't know what I would have changed except the whole air conditioning debacle.
By the time we got back to Texas, we were thinking we needed to just replace my car since it was going to cost a whopping $1500 to fix the A/C. It wasn't our plan. We were hoping to have the credit card paid off first, but by the time we got the car to the dealership to just see what we could get, it was smoking from another issue and we figured it was time to say good-bye to my very first car. It was my dream car, a Jeep Grand Cherokee we purchased shortly after we got married. We had 206,000 miles on that thing by the time we traded it in.
Now, I have a 2008 Hyundai Santa Fe with moon roof and seat warmers, a CD player, and several other bells and whistles. And a car payment starting in September. Sigh. It's nice, but I am still upset that we had to do it right now.
I went to work Friday and wished the whole day that I had just taken one more day off. Oh well. I survived. Then, Friday night we drove to Dallas again and stayed with my cousin. Then, up early Saturday for the sonogram to get this cycle started. We're still not sure what this next weekend will hold until the nurse can talk to my doctor, but we know we'll be driving back and forth to Dallas at least once this weekend. I really just want to stay home for a few weeks and not go anywhere. So tired!
I'm just feeling really worn down right now. I figure I'm probably slightly depressed and partly catching up still from all the going we've been doing lately. Not much chance to rest this weekend, though, because we have a Gospel Meeting starting Wednesday night and a VBS Saturday (which we will probably miss due to dr appts in Dallas -- a HUGE bummer for me because I LOVE VBS). My faith is dipping and waivering some lately, but I'm clenching onto it with my fingernails, trying to remember all the good things in my life, and trying to work out some other things. I refuse to let Satan take the promise of Heaven from me. Too many people I love are going to be there for me to not aim for it, too.