Sort of a New Beginning

So, I've sadly neglected my blog for about a year now. I guess life just got so discouraging that I didn't even want to think about sharing it with everyone.
However, I've come to the conclusion that I want to blog again . . . and even publicly. Most everyone has found out that I'm . . . well, not really infertile, but not really fertile, either. Let me catch you up on the last year, short version.
At the end of last school year, my husband found out that the economy was forcing the school to let some teachers go . . . and he was one of them. So, that was a major blow to us. We found that out the same day my OBGYN told me our next step was to see fertility specialists. Needless to say, it's been a crazy year. Jeremy did not find another teaching job (you don't have to be certified to teach at a Christian school, but you do at others) so he ended up working for a local electronic store down here. Needless to say, he's learned a lot about TVs that I'm not sure I wanted him to know. It's not paid as well, and the hours have been crazy, but God blessed us with the job and we've somehow had enought to make it.
Our church family has been a huge blessing to us and I cannot say that enough. There's no way we could have made it through the last year without them. We had to get a second car for the first time in three years with Jeremy's new job, so we found a used 2001 Jeep Liberty. It was a compromise as Jeremy wanted a truck. We thought we had a found a good thing but it died right before Christmas break. We had to replace the whole engine. After donations from lots of people, we found a way to pay for it and got it back shortly after Christmas break. Good thing I didn't work those two and a half weeks!
While in the past, my posts (and I'll leave them as they are because that's how I really did feel) have not been the most cheering or heartening, if you will. I want to change that. I, myself, have changed this last year. I've grown stronger, more patient, more trusting towards God. My faith is back and stronger where it had been waivering for sure for a while. I can see now that if we had had a child, or been pregnant, this last year would have been much harder than it has been. It's still hard to not have that child. We're coming up on three years of "trying" to get pregnant and I keep thinking, if it had happened as we planned, we'd have a two-year-old now, and maybe another on the way. A lot of my friends do. But I can honestly say I feel like I'm in a good place right now. I've been able to go to baby showers and be okay, even answering the question, "When are you going to have babies?" That, in itself, is a huge improvement from a year ago.
So, here's my blog starting again, hopefully with a brighter outlook.
My husband is working on his certification right now, and has started applying for teaching jobs for this fall. He's also planning to work and finish up his masters (YAY!). I have a summer job lined up and have it already scheduled for us to go see his family in July, something we haven't gotten to do since last June. This school year is almost over and we have survived. God is helping us through and we can make it, no matter what comes. That's hard to believe, but it's true.
I hope this blog shows that that fact is started to be embedded deep in my heart. Because I want it to radiate from me in every way. God is good -- ALL THE TIME.